Lord Jim

It must be nearly 40 years since I read Joseph Conrad's classic novel "Lord Jim". What's stuck with me about it all this time is the miscalculation made by the central character and how it affected the whole course of his life thereafter. There's a little Lord Jim in all of us, with varying severities of consequence. The miscalculation I made about last night's session turned out to be benign. I was convinced my overall balance had fallen below another million dollar boundary, but was mistaken. I remembered I'd wagered 250,000 play dollars, but somehow managed to forget that I made the money in one of the two tournaments I entered. That may have been due to the fact that the money up top in that tournament was negligible. I admit it, I'm getting pretty jaded. If the money up top is less than a million, it's almost feels like it's not worth playing for.

style flavor buy_in entry players hands entries paid place winnings

MTT   NLHE    45000  5000       6    83     109   30    17   103000
MTT-R NLHE    43500  6500       9    32      53   12    30        0

delta: $-147,000
MTT NLHE balance: $3,584,668
2019 balance: $14,564,850
balance: $61,099,110