A tale of two tournaments

Looking solely at their outcomes, the two tournaments I played last night could hardly be more similar. In the first, I came in 36th of 65. In the second, I came in 37th of 66. However, looking at the details, they could hardly be more different. Here's a summary:

tournament 1:

- I only lasted 35 hands
- I only won 2 of them
- I was never above water
- on the final hand, I was drawing dead after the turn

tournament 2:

- I lasted 60 hands
- I won 8 of them
- I was above water for 50 of them
- on the final hand, I was a 72.73% favorite after the turn

I realize I need to count my blessings, however. I'm up over 6 million on the year :-)

style flavor buy_in entry players hands entries paid place winnings

MTT-R NLHE    43500  6500       9    35      65   15    36        0
MTT-R NLHE    43500  6500       9    60      66   15    37        0

delta: $-200,000
MTT with rebuys NLHE balance: $40,056,000
2019 balance: $6,052,250
balance: $52,636,510