The wrong train

Last night, my normal train went missing, so I had to settle for an inferior one. It had two things going against it:

1. its buy in was only half that of my normal train

2. it was a deepstack I was joining late, which is a no-no

I only lasted 15 hands, only saw the flop twice, only went to showdown once, and didn't win a single hand. I played an 8-game after that, and did much better, but still missed the money. I'm definitely in a slump. On a brighter note, I've been doing great in online chess lately :-)

style flavor buy_in  entry players entries paid place winnings

MTT   NLHE    87000  13000       6     106   24    44        0
MTT   8-Game  45000   5000       6      72   18    22        0

delta: $-150,000
MTT NLHE balance: $25,510,768
2021 balance: $2,139,000
blue distance: $1,533,000
balance: $79,804,453