Self-sabotage

In a conservative estimate, I've made one million separate decisions in my online poker career. The actual number is probably closer to double that. The number of times I've meant to make one decision, but perversely made another, is certainly under 100, but isn't 0. I'm not talking about fingerfehlers; I'm talking about my subconscious refusing to obey my conscious will. In other words, self-sabotage. On the final decision of last night's session, I fully intended to fold, but called instead. That took me to the rail when I was within shouting distance of the money. I think I know why my subconscious took this enemy action - it was late, and I needed to get to bed :-)

style flavor buy_in entry players entries paid place winnings

MTT   NLHE   174000 26000       6      82   21    30        0

delta: $-200,000
MTT NLHE balance: $6,617,668
2020 balance: $-200,000
balance: $61,608,010